“life will be better in spring”

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I hate when you cry, cos it saddens me just as much, I'm holding on to so many sad memories and yet you want to add one more of ours to it, I know im being selfish, but i hope you understand that all i want is to overwrite my sad memories with happy, fun-loving moments of us...just now when i simply board the bus, avoiding you when you turn to me, it hurts me, when the bus driver starts the engine, my heart sank, for a moment, i feel like running off the bus but i know i cant...baby ar baby im angry cos i hate it when you are like crying over spilled milk, that is why i always tell you this tell you that, your hair your wearing, just wanna share my thoughts with you, hope you can improve and not change, having more confident in yourself as you improve, just like me now, but you are like seeing it as criticism, i know it hurts but i really dont wish others to shoot you, cos i cant protect you all the time, cos people just likes to talk behind walls behind close doors, bastards do exist... i have lots of regrets and i did mention them to you, i hate myself for that, so much so that when i saw friends and family around me doing something stupid, i say them or even scold them, i know i dont have the right to, i know i shldnt, but i just cant help it, maybe its in me, i know im selfish for doing so, but i sees this as a way to protect my love ones, baby i love you, i dont wish you to have regrets, just like me, cos regrets are like papercuts, they may happen fast and without you noticing, but they are definitely deep enough to break your vessels, cause you to bleed and pain in your heart...i dont wish this to happen to my love ones, especially you, and i hate myself when im hurting you, so dun give me a chance to hurt you, cos it will hurt me more, i like to see when you have confident, not the one who thinks why im like this and you are not, though it does feel shiok when i heard them, but i wont be happy if it is build upon hurting your ego, you got your perfect monents too, perfect not in the sense of being flawless, but perfect in the way that you shines even with the slightest glimpse of light, you know how it feels, baby you are beautiful in your own way, just like me, thats why you think im handsome, but im just an average guy, i know it but cos of you, im perfect haha baby dont be sad cos of what you see yourself in those clothes, though you cant bring out the feel in them, that doesnt mean you are ugly, that means that kind of clothes suit you no more, and its time to have a change le lah bleh, smack your head haha muacks i love you just the way you are