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A broken family, tears rolling off my chin, but will anyone in my family gives a dam bout it? I guess the answer is no, heart broken, torn apart cruelly, a small action a casual remark and every ignorant hurts but will u ever know? My lost family... I dont wish to turn my back at u all but can i not? Why am i treated like this? Do i deserve all this? Or is it that i dont deserve anything at all from u all...

I hate when you cry, cos it saddens me just as much, I'm holding on to so many sad memories and yet you want to add one more of ours to it, I know im being selfish, but i hope you understand that all i want is to overwrite my sad memories with happy, fun-loving moments of us...just now when i simply board the bus, avoiding you when you turn to me, it hurts me, when the bus driver starts the engine, my heart sank, for a moment, i feel like running off the bus but i know i cant...baby ar baby im angry cos i hate it when you are like crying over spilled milk, that is why i always tell you this tell you that, your hair your wearing, just wanna share my thoughts with you, hope you can improve and not change, having more confident in yourself as you improve, just like me now, but you are like seeing it as criticism, i know it hurts but i really dont wish others to shoot you, cos i cant protect you all the time, cos people just likes to talk behind walls behind close doors, bastards do exist... i have lots of regrets and i did mention them to you, i hate myself for that, so much so that when i saw friends and family around me doing something stupid, i say them or even scold them, i know i dont have the right to, i know i shldnt, but i just cant help it, maybe its in me, i know im selfish for doing so, but i sees this as a way to protect my love ones, baby i love you, i dont wish you to have regrets, just like me, cos regrets are like papercuts, they may happen fast and without you noticing, but they are definitely deep enough to break your vessels, cause you to bleed and pain in your heart...i dont wish this to happen to my love ones, especially you, and i hate myself when im hurting you, so dun give me a chance to hurt you, cos it will hurt me more, i like to see when you have confident, not the one who thinks why im like this and you are not, though it does feel shiok when i heard them, but i wont be happy if it is build upon hurting your ego, you got your perfect monents too, perfect not in the sense of being flawless, but perfect in the way that you shines even with the slightest glimpse of light, you know how it feels, baby you are beautiful in your own way, just like me, thats why you think im handsome, but im just an average guy, i know it but cos of you, im perfect haha baby dont be sad cos of what you see yourself in those clothes, though you cant bring out the feel in them, that doesnt mean you are ugly, that means that kind of clothes suit you no more, and its time to have a change le lah bleh, smack your head haha muacks i love you just the way you are





Getting tired of looking at faces, people just won't appreciate what you do for them, things are just being taken for granted, then so be it, you are you, and me is me, there wont be anymore sharing, any friendship cos im gonna UNFRIEND ZONE you assholes, to all the individuals that are involved, sayonara .. treat it as i da stamp haha to have regard you as friend

Getting cheap thrills out of someone is it really that fun? Seriously i find those people pure bastards, they could joke about others' look, wearing, or even their intelligence level, oh com' on, when they are not even close to perfect themselves...But sad to say, the society is slowly filled up with such bastards, out at work, friends or even your parents might face this kind of shitty people, while in army, you faced their sons, is it really that hard to think bout how others will feel before saying anything? It may not be hurtful to you, but why cant you think through your head before making any comments? We may not be appear to be retaliating, but that doesn't mean you can continue bullshitting, we are merely giving you face, treating you as someone who deserve some respect from us, but somehow if you all just trying to be funny, testing our patient, thinking that it boost your confidence to be telling off others ' back, don't blame us if you lost even the simplest respect from us, you will only become invisible as far as im concern, your words will fall on deaf ears, your sarcasm will be diverted back to you, you got dignity, so do us, and i always believe strongly in everyone having their own pride so do think bout others ' before you start bullshitting again, IF YOU DON'T WANT OTHERS TO TREAT YOU THE WAY YOU TREAT OTHERS, STOP DOING IT NOW, before its too late and lost someone who might be your friend and increasing one more enemy in future...and to those who listen purely from one bout another guy, you should jolly well go have a self reflect, its like not that you are born with only ears to hear, you got your eyes too, aren't you? So com' on, wake up your idea duke, if you were to listen to one asshole 's badmouthing bout another innocent guy, sad to say but i think you were equally rotten...and lastly backstabbers, is it really fucking shiok to be stabbing and telling off someone behind his back in order to find a topic with another guy who is of higher rank or position or with a so-called friend whom you might even have backstabbed before? Putting aside you superb BOOTLICKING SKILL, do you really have to become a three-headed snake? Seriously how sly can you be, how evil can you get, how much can you gain from it, is it worth doing till such extend, touch your heart if you have one, have that innocent guy really do something that is worth so much for your evil doing? Com' on la, time is the key to everything, you may 'forgive' that innocent someone as time goes by, but sad to say, time will never cure the guilt in your heart for your wrong doing...whats more if someone one day, by some chance, you realise that you have wronged him, or thought he might be some fuckup people whereby he is not, the guilt in you will be doubled or even tripled, but thats what you deserve...So carry on, SARCASM-er(s), BULLSHITT-er(s) and BACKSTABB-er(s)...